Fear

I’m curious to know if fear is a source of drive or retraction for you?

Fear was a driving factor in my life for a long time. Fear of failure. Fear of embarrassment. Fear of rejection. Fear of not fitting in. Fear of my body.

All of this motivated me in a way. I used the fight or flight to get things done, to avoid facing a Fear. Running off adrenaline, my nervous system constantly activated and I rarely felt calm or at peace.

This only started to calm when I started to accept myself and lessened the power I give to other people’s opinions (usually just opinions I had made up anyway).

Working on lessening the fear did wonders for my nervous system but then without fear I struggled with motivation. It was such a steady source of energy for me that when I lost it, I lost my drive too. Why would I do a 7 minute plank if I wasn’t fearful of my body changing?

What it did filter out was the things I discovered I wasn’t that passionate about. The things I only did because of fear.

Don’t get me wrong I still have a lot of fear. I even get scared every week putting these vulnerable posts out there. But I feel so much more grounded than I used to.

I’m still trying to figure this one out. Would love to hear your thoughts

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